The Sort of Hope Who $u<k$ Less At Basketball (than I did just a few months ago! :)

Nothing will work unless you do.

 John Wooden

And working I have been! (at my photography, any way.)

I didn’t want my poor neglected blog ‘s friends to think that I’ve just been sitting around eating bon bon’s waiting to not fulfill my commitment to the pictures for the 365 Challenge. Au Contraire!

I’ve been quite the busy little sick gal. I’ve been working so diligently at trying to get better at my basketball shots. Photos that is. A Michael Jordan I will never be. Just as I’ve been working hard, so have our basketball teams. Our boys and girls have both made County play offs – So proud of them!

Which means that I will even get the opportunity for extended practice this season. I didn’t want to bore you all with shots every time I took some , but here are a few that I just decided were post -worthy.

If I were a bit more clever, and had a bit more time, and hand strength left, I’d set it to some really balling music and video up for your viewing pleasure. But I’m not feeling very clever, I don’t have the time and my hands are a lost cause this close to treatment.

Hope you enjoy viewing them as much as I have enjoyed taking them nonetheless!

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The Sort of Hope Who Has A Daughter That Can Fly

Natalia’s first gymnastic competition was on Saturday. She competed last year as a Level 7 USA Gymnast and this year is now an Advanced Prep Optional ( it’s a level for girls who don’t quite have all the skills for Level 8 or those who for whatever reason just aren’t ready to compete the next compulsory level  quite yet. )

We could not have been more pleased with her performance! Gymnastics is such a fascinating sport to me. These girls train so intensely. I can’t wait for competition season so that I can be surprised by all of the new tricks that  Natalia and her teammates have mastered during the off season. This year was no exception. Natalia has added a layout full twist to her floor routine. Floor is my favorite thing to watch the girls compete and I honestly think it’s the thing that our gym tends to excel at the most consistently.

Yesterday was no exception. Natalia ended up doing very well for her first meet- she placed First All Around (36.00). Captured a 1st on beam (9.3) and floor (9.25), and a first on bars (8.95) and a third on vault (8.5).

There was a bit of a some excitement and a resurgence of interest in gymnastics last year following the Olympics. I could not have been happier for the girls at the gym. I feel like what these gymnasts go through is sometimes underrated and under-appreciated and surely under-valued because it is not a school sport. I get upset because I personally think that they don’t get the recognition that I feel they deserve. If people knew how much work these girls put into learning just one simple ‘trick’, maybe they’d value the sport a bit more. These girls are true athletes. Hours and hours spent in a gym to master their craft. They have to be braver and stronger and even more courageous than most other athletes. Fear is a word that they check at the door.

Competition days are difficult for me. (though surely nothing like they are for the gymnasts!) They often involve long rides in the car, sitting for hours on cold hard bleachers and then long rides home again. We never eat right. Traveling with me is like traveling with a toddler. I ‘ve got my “goody bag”- water, snacks, socks, meds, music -for distraction if the pain gets bad, pillows, blankets, gloves… If you’ve learned anything by now, you know that things like travel and long days I don’t get along real well, but the only times I have missed her meets were because of treatments. If it were up to me, I’d watch her and her team compete every weekend! I’ll just deal with a longer recovery time afterward. She won’t be competing forever and while she is , I’m going to do my darndest to make sure when she looks up, she sees her mom in the crowd.

I’m not sure why, but yesterday I really struggled to photograph this event. Out of practice maybe? You cannot use flash in a gym, the lighting is typically even worse than in a school gym. Gymnasts move fast. Very fast. This was the first meet with all new routines so I wasn’t sure how to follow them. AND to complicate the process, for every event but the beam, I was shooting through the safety bars of the balcony. I did manage to get a few decent shots of each event.

Special thanks to my two photographer friends for responding to my panicked texts about how to try to take the shots from that meet. (and understanding that sometimes my panic is born of my disease and my over active nervous system making me forget every thing I already know!) You guys are life savers to me. Truly.

Anyway, for those of you who don’t have amazingly talented people who fly through the air with the greatest of ease, allow me to share mine! The girls of FGI. It’s a pretty short season – States is March 16- and our gym only competes about 5 meets- so enjoy these girls with me. They really are something special.

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The Sort of Hope Who $u<k$ at Basketball

Basketball moves fast. Very fast. Much faster then my broken lens and I were prepared to handle.

Natalia just started her High School cheering season for basketball and I thought I’d give basketball photography a go.

HAHAHAHA. Ya, no.

Indoor lighting + bad lens + fast moving sport = disaster.

However, never being one to back down from a challenge, I am going to learn how to do this by the end of the season. Not master it, mind you ( though that would be amazing, wouldn’t it? ) I am going to learn it. Goal = set.

I came home that night and spent the evening reading everything I could find on what I was doing wrong , and some of what I had done right. Bearing in mind that much of my challenge is a faulty lens.

Many thanks to my secret helper who sent me all the reading I did that night. I won’t disappoint you. I’ll get this.

Normally, I ‘d be much too vain to post photos that I’d consider anything less than good. This time, though, I thought it would be in my best interest to post my baseline. Then I can look back in a month or two and see how far I’d come. I will admit that the majority of what I shot that night was unusable. I was able to salvage a few good shots. Some of which I shared here.

I know my lens won’t fix itself so it’s up to me to do the best I can with the handicap of the broken lens.

I figure, in a way, my camera and I are a bit alike. We both have handicaps that I have to learn how to work around. And so far, though at times they both frustrate the dickens out of me, neither one has really managed to get the best of me. Yet.

Game on.

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The Sort of Hope Who Does Not Like Hurricanes ( specifically Sandy)

This is my son Nick. He is in Jupiter Florida right now playing for The PG NY Clippers at something called The Perfect Game. He was chosen to go because someone believes he is talented enough to be there with the best of the best. We are so grateful for this opportunity for him. It has been a dream of his to play baseball in Florida for as long as I can remember. It was never, however, part of his dream to drive 30 hours to arrive at his dream only to be greeted by a hurricane. Hurricane Sandy.

As happy and as proud of my son as I was for being selected to play in this tournament, that’s as sad as I am for him right now.  Imagine driving all that distance to have your dreams literally blown away. But I know that Nick is strong. And I know that he is brave and he is a fighter and he will make it through this.   My heart is there with him even though my physical self can’t be.

He will make this a learning experience and emerge victorious. He has played travel baseball away from home before but never quite this far away. And certainly never under conditions quite like this, stuck in a hotel most of the time, being so close to what you want to do most in the world but not quite being able to do it. And all you can do is lay in a bed and look at your uniform hung carefully ( I hope) just waiting to be worn and dream.

**As I go to post this I have found out that his team got the opportunity to play one game so far. They are playing in less than ideal conditions. 50 mile an hour winds and rain with oft time downpours. Nick got a chance to throw to 4 batters. He had 3 first pitch strikes. Topped the radar at 87mph. 1 K , 2bb,1 hit then the game was called.  Which makes this mom pretty darn proud of her 16 year old. I sure hope he is proud of himself. His first tournament of this caliber under conditions like that- I’d say you are living your dream, son! (But if I know my boy, it wasn’t good enough for him, because he knows he can do better).

Can’t wait to get the next scouting report. Weather permitting. This will make such a good story for his son ( or daughter) some day.

The Busy Sort of Hope

~Couldn’t wait to be able to photograph my daughter and her friends cheering in the daylight… but instead got home and  learned a very valuable lesson~ will come in handy in the future, so remember it,  *especially* should you ever wish to become a skydiver or a professional bungee jumper, or anything , really… ‘always, always, check your equipment before you use it!’

That being said, I had such an incredible weekend. Sold soup to save the boobies on Saturday. Watched our team play in their second to last tournament of the season.  Brought home silver. Lost a 9 game winning streak.   Was on the go from pre-dawn hours to post- sunset non stop both Saturday and Sunday.

Today I worked on perfecting the art of recliner sitting. Recovery day for me. I can remember my doctor telling my husband that if he needed me to do something I would need about 3 days to rest up before the something and about 3 days to recoup after the something. I can’t remember a time that I had 3 days of nothing. Except the last coma treatment that I had. Dr S calls my coma treatments forced relaxation for me.

I’ll relax. I swear. As soon as my kids do.

Here’s a little peak at my weekend. – most of the baseball shots are through a fence. certainly does change the look, doesn’t it-            darn fences. )

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The “OoOoh SoOo Far Behind” Sort of Hope

Time flies like an arrow; fruit flies like a banana.”
― Groucho Marx

My days… my afternoons, my nights.. where do they go?

Sometimes I think that they get swallowed up by that mystical force that steals one of the socks from the dryer… ( St Elmo’s Fans?) Sometimes I am certain that they get lost in the time sucker that is facebook or in reading/ viewing this whole new glorious world of word press . I am, however,  fairly certain that a large chunk of my time is sucked into recouping in my lazyboy and most others I am all but positive my minutes are buried under the mountains and mountains of clothes that my children insist upon calling dirty laundry.

But for sure I can guarantee that a large part of my life is spent here… either at a baseball field watching my son do what he loves, or at a soccer game watching my daughter cheer, or editing such events. Sometimes I wonder how many pictures of such said events I *truly* need and people *truly* wish to see but then I see the comments people post, the way the kids post them so proudly and I just keep snapping and editing.. repeating the cycle. Looking for the picture I haven’t yet taken. Or a way to take it a wee bit differently.

My time does indeed fly like an arrow straight through my heart, because no matter how busy I am I try as hard as I can to keep up with my two kids. And no matter how much it hurts or how hard it is, I keep fighting every day because I also know that one day all too soon, they will fly away.

Maybe then I’ll get caught up.

The Sort of Hope that is Passionate

Passion.

It is a quality I both admire and respect in athletes. My kids have it in abundance for their respective chosen sports. Their friends have it, too. My husband still has it for his first love- baseball. I think I’ve found it for photography.

Rather than try to write about it and fail miserably, I thought I’d share my weekend full of passion-the rated PG (for language, not content) kind of passion- with all of you. The passion for what you do, accomplished by using my passion for what I do. I hope in every photo the passion for what these kids are doing is evident to you. Their story… their happiness, their success, their sadness and their failure. I will finish by sharing my very favorite quote about passion…

Passion, it lies in all of us, sleeping… waiting… and though unwanted… unbidden… it will stir… open its jaws and howl. It speaks to us… guides us… passion rules us all, and we obey. What other choice do we have? Passion is the source of our finest moments. The joy of love… the clarity of hatred… and the ecstasy of grief. It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion maybe we’d know some kind of peace… but we would be hollow… Empty rooms shuttered and dank. Without passion we’d be truly dead. ~ Joss Wheadon

(I have another blog entry called “the mood of the moment” that I try to update semi-regularly with some of my other favorite quotes and favorite self portraits-check it out)

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The Sort of Hope Who Went to Berkshire Opening Day

*all rules for photographing balls were followed* I happened by the SeaDogs vs Spinners and found this shot.

The “I’m at a baseball game again” sort of Hope

There are three things in my life which I really love:  God,my family, and baseball.  The only problem – once baseball season starts, I change the order around a bit.  ~Al Gallagher, 1971

That’s the way things are in this family, too. In fact, in my kitchen hangs a wooden sign that rather proudly announces to all who enter ” We interrupt this family for baseball season. ”  Only thing is, baseball ‘season’ now runs Jan- Nov. But hey, we are at least off for December. December flies by so quickly we barely even notice that we aren’t playing.

Good thing I love baseball. I have always loved baseball. Long before I met my husband, my father and I would sit in our living room, with one of those big round metal Good’s Chips cans in between us, happily crunching along  as we watched the Phillies play. Tug Mc Graw was my favorite back then. Mike Schmidt. Pete Rose. (Am I dating myself?) I am a disappointment to the sport I love, though. I couldn’t remember a single statistic if my life depended on it. My brain simply won’t work that way. If you know anything at all about baseball, you know that you must be able to come up with any given stat at any given moment. You must know a batters’ avg against every pitcher from every team in all sorts of weather and under every circumstance. You must know what he ate for dinner that night , too. What type of bat he prefers, and where he shops.

Oh wait..

When I found my husband he was traveling our country playing men’s major fast-pitch softball. He was quite the baseball player in HS , too. Which his father would be more than happy to tell you about. That’s another thing I’ve learned (at least in this family) about baseball players, have they got the stories! Every game is relived countless times and no detail is ever forgotten. Every player gets better as time goes on, too. No one ever struck out and everyone always threw strikes “back in their day” (which confuses my brain sometimes how it is possible to have such perfect pitchers and perfect hitters at the same time).  It amazes me that the world isn’t filled with hundreds, nay, thousands of senior citizens who are all retired major league ball  players that have thrown countless perfect games and are all tied for the major league batting titles.

But my husband was good and so was his father ( as was mine) so it would only stand to reason that our son would be a natural, too.  By the age of 2 my son had full catcher’s gear. He could throw a ball before he could walk. He was “wow-ing” people in little league already. I love to watch him play.  I love to watch him do what he loves just as I loved watching his father play , too. They both give it all they’ve got and play with a passion that is obvious to anyone who watches. I’ve never washed one clean uniform after any of their games. “Dirty baseball players” – that’s a whole other blog.

I always feel like each season is going to be my favorite. High School, Legion, Fall Baseball. His freshman year of high school he was on the Varsity team and the team won Districts. That was a pretty special year. I fell “in love” with his first Legion team this year , too- the Oley Topton Patriots. Called them my “Summer Love” Those Patriot boys were something special too. So much talent, so much heart.  It was a very sad day for me when that season ended all to early. Now Nick is  playing for an 18U Showcase team with Berkshire Baseball. Traveling. Sadly I was forced to miss his first travel weekend because of a treatment but I’m hoping to catch the next one.

We have big dreams for our son. What parent doesn’t? We are hoping for a scholarship for him. He has good grades..works hard and plays harder. More importantly to us, he’s a great kid. But there is nothing he wants more than to play baseball. So if that’s what he wants, of course we want it for him, too.

Somewhere along the way, my love of watching he and his friends play this game that they love turned into my new hobby that I love. – Photography. I was about to pack it all in the other day when a father of one of the boys from my Summer Love wrote to me to thank me for sharing my photos and showing baseball “my way” and allowing his family from far away to follow his son’s Legion season.

Sooooo, for now, I will stick to sharing my love of baseball with you, with everyone. Jan-Nov. It’s hard to quit. I ‘ve tried before but 99.9% of the time I’ve failed. When it rains.  Whether I’m away or “at home”.

Mamarazzi in action

“if you can’t be an athlete be an athletic supporter” ~ Coach / Grease.

http://www.otbasebaseball.org

SR Patriots – Roster all photos by Hope